And you know what?! WHy is it such a bad idea.. I am only this age and only this big and only that tall and only this annoying.
I want to feel what you advertise!
I want to be what you tell me to be
because then I am certain I will be 100% happier, 100% more beautiful and all much more in love and loved by my man. Or even if I don't have one just now, I will certainly meet one. May it be
at a coffee shop or a bus stop, office or at a party.. its gonna be amazing. Amazing and out of this world experience.. and you know it.I know though that after certain age you are being called ma'aam and madam. It pisses me off. It makes me want to change so many things about this world...
And what if I dont want to have kids?
What if I am ok the way I am --- I am ok to rent my flat, to be happy hear and not want to own any single thing?!...
What if I am happy just the way I am anyways?!
And what if I want to listen to those stupid songs and to actually dance naked in my house.. what if I want to have that feeling in my heart --- I simply dont know -- I simply dont know whats gonna happene. What if that hunk that makes me so happy now is going to stick around. I cant say it now one way or the other..
Sometimes I certainly dont know whats the point, whats the idea..
What if I dont know if I want to have kids.
Or husbands.
Or divorces for that matter....
dont you just miss that feeling?!?!? ---------------
freedom.
